Tuesday, April 24, 2018

Untitled (assholes in yellow hats you used to admire)


There’s a saying I learned as of late, “Never meet your heroes”. Well, I can’t say that I met the person who this blog entry is about and I dunno if I can ever say this person my hero. Kindred spirit that I felt sympathy for, maybe.

In the past few weeks, there’s been I guess you could say a revolt against entertainment website, Channel Awesome, by former content creators of the site. Among the asshole behavior listed that the website creators did to their employees, there came a document that had shown that the former content creator, Justin “Jewwario” Carmichal, had sexually assaulted and groomed women that worked with the site and fans of his. Yes, Jewwario, the “man” that a previous blog of mine “Goodbye Stranger” was about. A man I felt a connection to, a man with a wife. Just...fuck.

But I shouldn’t have been surprised. A couple of years back, a former beau who had connections to Channel Awesome told me that Jewwario was not on the up and up. When she first told me, I didn’t want to believe her. He came off as too nice of a guy to do what she was accusing him of. I...I had a connection to him. We both like Japanese exclusive video games and Tokusatsu. He didn’t look like someone that could do such a thing. But that’s the thing with mask, you can’t wear one forever. It doesn’t have to be someone who doesn’t look like a dangerous person to be a dangerous person. Since I didn’t discover Jewwario until after he died, I put  what my former beau told me in the back of my mind, but disassociated my self from him in every way shape and form. I keep my blog entry about him up however, until today.

I really want to address a video he did a while back called “you are not stupid”. It was a video where he talked to his fans, giving them possible confidence in perhaps their darkest time. I know I watch it a few times myself and to think he made this video while manipulating others is very disturbing. But if anyone feels stupid from following his words, he’s got one thing right, YOU ARE NOT STUPID. None of us are, we were manipulated. The smartest people in the world can be manipulated if they are caught off balance just once by assholes with hidden agendas. Keep knowing that you are as smart as the galaxy is and beyond. Wow, that was heavy.

To his victims, I’m sorry that he wasn’t the man he made himself out to be. I’m sorry if you told someone and they didn’t believe you. No one should ever give you the benefit of the doubt. I know sorry isn’t enough but…

and finally, for Jewwario... お前は野郎だ


1 comment:

  1. As I always say, anyone is capable of anything. My only hope is that this can provide some kind of closure for these girls, and that they can start to heal. And I kind of hope that there is a hell (though, as an atheist, I don't believe that there is), so that he's burning in it for what he did.

    ReplyDelete