A decade is a long time. In that timespan, there can many helloes and goodbyes and sometimes, goodbyes aren't fair. In this decade, so many have come and gone out of my life that some goodbyes are a blur and some just stick. March 17th of this year marks a decade of Candace Johnson saying goodbye. She is one who stuck.
I've been writing this blog for about 10 years and our goodbye was one of the first entries. I've written about the star I saw the night of her viewing, the words said about me from her parents and my thoughts of her. All the time passed and I can't believe a woman like her could like schlub like me.
I'm sure I've talked about the details in previous blogs about how we met and our instantly hitting it off, the missed phone calls, etc... but in these passing years, I wonder if I would still hold up to her standards.
These past few years, I'm not as optimistic as I was in our time together and I wonder if I would have become this way if she were here. You don't judge yourself by the people who have come in and out of your life but some, you just can't help but to. There ARE people I just know I would have been a better person if they had stayed. Some, I've pushed away and some who just left. Maybe I would've been better with her or maybe I would've just drug her down to my level.
I'm rambling because I dunno what else to say except I miss you.
Forever,
your 🐸👑
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